Drinking Alcohol taught me how to fly
Then it took away the sky....
Showing posts with label freedom. Show all posts
Showing posts with label freedom. Show all posts

Thursday, August 30, 2012

1939--A GOOD YEAR!

AGE SIX
 During my childhood it was a tradition
that the children (especially sons) 
in a Jewish family had to play the violin.
 And without question, 
excellence was expected...


The year: Nineteen Hundred 
and Thirty-Nine.
Dear mother of mine
heard the word--and
Every Jewish Mother's son
knew he was a 'chosen one'.

Requirement: I learn to play
(no matter what I might say)
 horse-hair-cat-gut, mortal-sin
apparatus called a violin.
SCREEEECH!

And so, as a gift I received
piles of dust, out of dusty piles.
From attic Grandpa retrieved:
you guessed it, a filthy old viol
no hair--no gut. Dried glue did
not hold it together, but rubber
bands did the trick--one slick
instrument repair
TEEEEECH!

Grandpa was not Jewish, you see...
neither was my mother. Nor me.
But everything is OK in the end.
I play violin, celebrate with friends
Rosh Hashanah, Chanukah, EID(!),
Pentecost and the Feast of Stephen.
PRAKTISSSSS!

At an age when greatest of stars
in sports are 'over-the-hill'
I play violin, near and so far
and keep getting better still.
Has nothing to do with the fact
I can no longer hear the trill
SPEEEECH!

But this I say to you, my Peeps
an 'attitude of gratitude' keeps
me happy, joyous and free 
long as God will let me BE.

Blessings.
Love you.
PEEEEEEACE!

--Steve E  (aka steveroni)

PS. To "You know who you are"
I   L O V E  my
Liberty University
security blankee!
Thankee.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

NOT IN VAIN


                        
It has not been in vain,
this training and teaching time...
time of suppression, repression, depression
is changed now into a time
of glorious expression.

--God Calling
(June 28, 2012)


YOSEMITE...AND THE WATER FLOW
LIKE OUR FLOWING LOVE--
NEVER REALLY CEASING

Above the photo, today's reading/meditation hit me right across the head. So often I feel guilt--no!--shame because of my own happiness. It's like, am I the only one who isn't full of negativity? (My perception tells me this.)

Even though I have obligations, they are MY responsibilities, my choices. I have the freedom to change them, to do or not.

Being bound to my own options in this life is just not the same as spending 40 or more hours each week at the behest of others. My work life began before age 10 on the farm, and lasted for 55 years. (Not all of them on the farm--grin!) Now I perform activities that--if they'd been 'requested' by authority--would have turned me quite far from enjoyment of life.

First, I am alcoholic. Second, I do not drink--for more than 38 years! You probably do NOT care for knowing how one IS an alcoholic, even after staying sober...so I won't expound on that now! Today, I practice 'being satisfied'. That helps me--to have no expectations of others (a few minutes of that is possible, now and then--grin!)

Doctor visit this morning ended my need for continuing liquid chemo on my face--I'm finally burnt to a crisp, took a 'before' photo moments ago. After 10+/- days of a special creme I will shoot another photo--'after'..and blog them. It may help someone to take more care of their skin when spending years in the sunshine--yeah...right!

--In a different 'vain', I said to doctor if she got rid of the ugliness, and kept the color, I'd be grateful.

Everyone I met this morning returned my Alien-like smiles, my face one big, bleeding bag of sores. And Peeps are just SO nice everywhere.

"God Calling" quote at top of post is my raison d'etre during this segment of my life. My training, learning how to live, is from a teacher named Alcoholics Anonymous. If I had not been a hopeless, helpless drunk, I'd never have allowed a Higher Power (God!) to lead me to AA. Does that connect with you? That I am forever grateful to God and AA? I was allowed to hit the bottom, the dregs of living. I'm truy grateful to BE a recovering Alcoholic!

I read, see, and trust many fellow Peeps in these blogs, and their words nurture me. I give support as well as receive it, through poetry, other writings, pictures, and "glorious expression". We share our experiences, strengths, and hopes here with any who would 'hear' or read.

Grace from God is continuing, never stopping. It just like "Where is all that water coming from?

My prayer is that all of us be allowed to continue these practices until God says, "YOU!  It's time now. C'mon along!"

PEACE, LOVE, and PRAISE!

--steveroni



Monday, January 24, 2011

DIMENSIONS: A HOUSE -- NOT A HOME

Photo is by "me"--one of those homes which never was finished
Just like the author of this blog--grin!

 Once again I walk alone, where butterflies flutter by
On that mountain path towering over the sea.

Looking for what is no more there
Except sea, sky, and me,
Just we alone...do the math.
We alone? NO! We three.

Fluttered away are attachments
What is left after--so named
By Peeps, me and Thee....

......FREE! 
--Steve E
This is a Friday flash '55' 
Today is Monday
Am I early...or late? 
Visit G-Man and find out. Maybe!